When you take a few steps back, do you like what you see? The emptiness, the gorgeous tragedy And all of a sudden things aren't like what they seem And everything gets washed up in the street The terrifying truth about what you think you know It starts to show and now Now it all comes undone But we've just begun Who's to say we're meant to be? Who's to say we're something more than A tangled line of communication A myriad of existential full life crisis The world in monochrome, the world destined to blow No fucking salvation No chance to breathe Cannot think straight No more reactions No place in this world I just want to die Hard to think straight, hard to breathe Feels like it's been eternity Lungs constricting, chest caved in Heart stopped beating

When I first saw it there, amongst the wreckage A membento to a former life, I nearly lost it All those memories were burned away and I felt nothing after that Everywhere, lives were scattered on the street And I was terrified of where I was gonna find mine The ocean came, and swept away our pride Everything I ever loved was lost in the tide Where were you when the waters overthrew All sense of normalcy, and when they did recede They left behind a trail of things that I had failed To defend from the storm or myself Save what you can grab, there's not a lot of time Leave me here with all the things you'd rather leave behind I'll watch the ark depart as the waves carry me home I'd say that I was sorry, but I'm sure you already know The fires glowed, deep into the night But I've seen all I need to see, the last thing I need is light To show me all the things I could've saved but didn't If I die tonight please know that till the end my heart was in it Miles away, let the wind carry me home Back to where I should've been, a long long time ago I hope that you can hear me, I hope that you can see I hope that when it's over, there'll be something left of me Save what you can grab, there's not a lot of time Leave me here with all the things you'd rather leave behind I'll watch the ark depart as the waves carry me home I'd say that I was sorry, but I'm sure you already know All I want is there to be some semblance of you left for me To hold onto before I drown Your voice is all I'll hear as I begin to go down Save what you can grab, there's not a lot of time Leave me here with all the things you'd rather leave behind I'll watch the ark depart as the waves carry me home I'd say that I was sorry, but I'm sure you already know

I can't imagine, anyone listening I wouldn't wanna be them, I don't wanna be me Should stop pretending, I'm making no sense I wouldn't wanna be them, I don't wanna be me And every stupid self involved misguided anecdote Is making things worse My propsensity for calamity, and misguided need to intervene Is sinking me, no clarity in the words I speak And yet I never stop to ask myself, have I considered all the implications? I'm not the one you oughta trust Whatever shine you see will rust I'm not the one you oughta trust I'm not the one you oughta I'll never stop myself Never fuck myself over enough I'll never stop myself

To be honest, I'm not sure if there's much use writing this I don't know what I expect to achieve But at some point, we have to sit down as a species And think long and hard about where we go next How much grand posturing before we think maybe we need a change? How many people die before we start acting our fucking age? Do you really need to listen to me sing this shit in a song? I can't be the only one who thinks society just got it wrong Don't analyze it Just be complicit Don't overthink it Jut be glad you're in it Glad you're with it Reap the benefits Use the buzzwords, foxcus on the lower class It's much easier to sell you something if you never ask villify the social movements, mock their leaders, mock the poor Make sure everybody knows which one of us you're working for We're spiraling it seems 200 years of broken dreams They came for you, they'll come for me Wait and see Your silence dooms the ones who lack The ability to turn their backs And I don't know I don't know how you look in the mirror

Yeah it's the point you're fucking missing Close your eyes, cover your ears and run You're blinded by your own admission Guilty of everything under the sun But yeah I'm sure God will forgive you He's got a history of poor decisions Excuse me if I choose not to The Lord and me don't always share his vision Oh, it must be nice to live your life so sheltered Hiding in comfort whil you promote helter skelter Oh, it must be nice to think that you can decide privilege When you're th eonly on who gets to fuckin glive it Decrying detractors as PC liberal idiots Espousing diatribes to all your loyal syncophants You know nothing can save you You're naked and exposed You know no one can love you You know you'll die alone You know nothing can save you You're naked and exposed You know no one can love you You know you'll die alone I know this song won't change your mind Words and melodies never could I know exactly how this ends But I can't stand it I can't stand it

Cold as ice, but I saw through the facade Hard as steel, but I saw through the inside The biggest regret I'll have in this life Is taht you didn't hear this song in this life I said it all, but I didn't say it soon enough Haven't coped well at all since last time Still been searching for a reason, a familiar rhyme Enough's enough, but I never spite it up Wish I could say that I believe in up above But all the things I have to say, I keep em bottled up I hope you knew I always cared Even when you wished that I'd be there The things in death we wish we said Whether you knew is anyone's guess Cold as ice, did you see through the facade Hard as steel, did you feel from the inside The biggest regret I'll have in this life Is that we only ever get this one life I don't pray for one more day, but it would be nice

Growing pains, awkward strains in me Always augmented by a change of scenery Never a friend around when the time came Maybe it's for the best, they should forget my name But I still wonder, oh what could've been If I stayed under your skin I ran away, ran away, cuz I couldn't stay Lessong learned, I'll never make that play I wanna stay, wanna stay, don't make me run away Don't make me born again Every morning rise again Another day in the life of a scared and anxious man Every night, repeat my prayers Dear god, just let me remain here But I still wonder, oh what could've been If I stayed under your skin I ran away, ran away, cuz I couldn't stay Lessong learned, I'll never make that play I wanna stay, wanna stay, don't make me run away Don't make me born again I don't wanna leave, please don't make me go I don't wanna leave, please don't make me go I don't wanna leave, please don't make me go I don't wanna leave, please don't make me go I don't wanna leave, please don't make me go I don't wanna leave, please don't make me go Please don't make me go, Please don't make me go I ran away, ran away, cuz I couldn't stay Lessong learned, I'll never make that play I wanna stay, wanna stay, don't make me run away Don't make me born again Born Again

I've got 4 walls, I've got a room and out of tune guitars I've got some windows but I don't keep them open for long I like my bubble it provides me with security Oh please don't pop it, I don't wanna I don't wanna leave Just forget it, I'm better alone anyway I think I could do a lot more good here anyway I used to wonder what would lie just beyond the door One time I went out, I don't think about that anymore Reclusively exclusive, don't wanna be intrusive Yeah you'll invite me but I'll just end up inviting myself out I always end up staying too long I always end up singing this song I always end up staying too long I always end up being wrong I'm so sick and fucking tired of always thinking that I'm gonna die I'm so sick and fucking tired of every sentence beginning with I I'm so sick and fuckin gtired of never being able to cry I've got nothing good to say, so I should just keep it shut

Every day, every day I'm wandering I'm wandering around inside this empty head of mine Trying to keep, tryin gto keep myself contained But I'm afraid that my degree in sociology Appears to be more useless than I thought Something seems, something seems so wrong with me How could i have allowed myself to devolve to such a sorry mess But hey I mean, hey I mean it could be worse If you think for just one second I could be In my bedroom drinking myself half to death Trying to come up with something everybody will love and respect Cuz everybody all want's theirs It's not about the art, it's about who cares Yeah every word I write has to be poetic and just And all these songs I sing about myselg will never be enough I don't get it, and to be honest, I think I'm out of luck Do you see, do you see now what I mean I don't know what I wan, but I'm pretty sure that it ain't me Yeah I'm pathetic, apathetic, out of touch I can't help feeling shitty and I know that I Absolutely, probably, definitely think too much I'm not original, or individual And the residual of that has got me feeling down But hey I'll try, I'l keep trying till I die If you wait for just one second I promise there's a point to these words I'm vomiting But I can't recall the message, so until then I'll just keep on singing Cuz nobody else is there, I'm singing to an empty room somewhere Screaming at the top of my lungs, hoping someone will respond Until my throat is bleeding and the band members are gone And I'm alone, and if we're honest, that's all I ever was And this is where I stand, this is where I stand And this is where I stand, this is where I stand And this is where I stand, this is where I stand And this is where I stand, this is where I stand

Been alone for far too long Can't be good for an anxious mess like me To be alone every day, reflecting endlessly My mind betrays me always, it never ceases to amaze me how I can be so careless and vain, yet so deeply unsure of who I oughta be My life's a vicious cycle of co-dependencies And reliance on a myriad of excuses, man I'm gone I'm gone Come with me, we're almost there To the top of the mountain where I lost My time and place, my place and time never seem to sync up right I throw myself right off, into the waiting arms of apathy and when I look around, and fail to fly I close my eyes and know there's nothing I can do Without you Without you So let's all have a toast To the martyrs and the ghosts Who pray to God that they were never born Drink away the pain, snort the lines until it fades Every single bullshit idea I try to explain

Moving at all hours Never going somewhere new I've been here for too long I've been staring at these walls Losing all my patience All my big plans fell apart Nothing really ever matters And when it does, I fuck it up Nothing ever seems to change Just this once, I wish it would Is this all I am Is this all I ever was Is this all I'll ever be Like father, like son Just this once, let me blaze a path Just this once, I want to believe in me Just this once, please just let me in Just this once, just this fucking once